I can't fight this feeling any longer. The more i ignore it, the stronger it becomes. The more i try to laugh it off, the more upset i become.

I really want to confront the person and tell her how much her simple act has really hurt me. Yet, i'm scared that it will affect the friendship (though im begining to wonder whether she really regards me as a friend). Afterall, it is her prerogative to do what she likes.

To be honest, i'm starting to feel frustrated with life. Why am i always the one who tries to get everyone to meet up? And because of events such as people backing out at the last minute, i never really enjoy the meet ups in the end. I sometimes feel like a pathetic loser because people are always too busy to meet up. It really sucks to be rejected. And the recent events have made me realise that no matter what i do, i really mean nothing to them.

Enough is enough. I've done all i can. Though admittedly whiny, this is not some random oh-pity-me blogpost. I have realised that social networking tools on the net have the huge capacity to hurt people. I no longer want to be hurt nor hurt others. Hence, i will no longer read blog posts, twitter, facebook and this blog will go on permanent hiatus. To faithful readers, thanks for the memories. It's been a good run.

CNY deco is up but i feel the urge to buy more decorations... I must resist!

I'm getting a bit tired of meeting up with people and then realising that i have nothing to update about my life. Hence! In a vain effort to spice life up, i have decided that if no one determines any travel plans for the next few months.. i will embark on a trip by myself in April.