omgomgomgomgomgomg!
I start work tomorrow.
omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg!
im already freaking out about how to get to the damn place. Thankfully, i have chu hui to cling to! damnit. super freaking scared that i will be late, and then my boss will have a horrid impression of me.. and won't like me and then! my life will be a nightmare! and then! they will fire me! omgomgomgomgomg.
I don't understand why i'm so darn nervous about this attachment. It's not like i have not worked before.. im just so damn scared tt the people in charge won't like me/ won't like the job of teaching interns stuff. And im already sucha lousy student.. i need all the help i can get!
And im damn scared tt if the people there don't like interns and don't wanna help... it's gonna be hellish because
1) pple will gossip and bitch
2) pple are gonna shoot "arrows" at the intern (i.e. me) since i wouldn't know anything.
And to make matters worse, the construction industry is unique in the sense the people can be blunt. My law lecturer once told us a story about how this client was so fed up with an intern (since the intern couldnt confirm the answers on the spot... he had to go back to check with the top management) that
he called up the intern's boss in front of the intern and told the boss that "I can't let your intern learn on my project. Get me a new person now." The client hung up and told the intern "nothing personal". If that happened to me... i would die of mortification. So many thanks to my law lecturer for traumatising me.
egad. why do i have a sinking feeling abt tml?
oh and i have 6 pimples(!) on my face. Thanks fate. thanks. a. lot.