Dear Diary,
Mood- apathetic

My parents just don't get me you know
they think I'm gay just because they saw me kiss a guy
well, a couple guys but I mean, its the 2000s.
Can't 2, or 4 dudes make out with each other without being gay?
I mean chicks dig that kind of thing anyways
I don't know diary
Somtimes I think you're the only one that gets me
You're my best friend... I feel like tacos.

My life is spiraling downwards
I couldn't get enough money to go to the blood red romance
and suffocate me dry concert that sucks
'cause they play some of my favorite songs
like stab my heart because I love you, and rip apart my soul,
and of course stabbity rip stab, stab.
And it doesnt help that I couldn't get my hair to do that flippy thing either
like that guy from that band can do.

Somedays...
I'm an emo kid non-conforming as can be
you'd be non-conforming too
if you looked just like me
I have paint on my nails and make up on my face
I'm almost emo enough to start shaving my legs
'cause I feel real deep when I'm dressing in drag
I call it freedom of expression
most just call me a fag
'cause our dudes look like chicks
and our chicks look like dykes
'cause emo is one step below transvestite

Stop my breathing and slit my throat,
I must be emo
I don't jump around when I go to shows,
I must be emo
I'm dark and sensitive with low self-esteem
the way I dress makes everyday feel like Halloween
I have no real problems
but I like to make believe
I stole my sisters mascara
and now I'm grounded for a week

Sulking, and writing poetry are my hobbies
I can't get through a Hawthorne Heights album without sobbing
Girls keep breaking up with me
it's never any fun
they say they already have a pussy- they don't need another one

My life is just a black abyss;
you know it's so dark
and it's suffocating me grabbing hold of me
and tightening its grip tighter
than a pair of my little sisters jeans which look great on me by the way

When I get depressed I cut my wrist in every direction
hearing songs about getting dumped give me and erection
I write in my live journal and wear thick rimmed glasses
I told my friends I bleed black and cry during classes
I'm just a bad, cheap imitation of goth
you can be Catcher in the Rye and watch me jack off
I wear skin tight clothes while hating my life
if I said I liked girls I'd only be half right
I look like I'm dead and dress like a homo,
I must be emo

Screw X-Box I play old school nintendo,
I must be emo
I like to whine and hit my parentals
I must be emo,
Me and my friends all look like clones
I must be emo

- Emo Kid by Adam and Andrew-

It's time for a bitch rant. You have been warned.

Wanted: Horrid Group Member

Requirements: Must be able to make me
1) wanna pull all my hair out
2) Feel like the end of the world is coming
3) Shoot the evil look.

How to be a Bad group member:
1) Do not reply emails sent to your mail. And when you finally do so, please cite "hall and personal stuff" as your reason. This is so as to imply that you have a life while others don't.
2) On the first arranged meeting, be late. Oh! And don't forget not to inform your group member. Tell them that you are on your way only when they call you half an hour later asking where the heck you are and informing you that the meeting has ended.
3) No matter what you do, DON'T do research for the next group meeting. Read the case study only during the meeting.
4) When one group member is late (since she has to travel all the way from serangoon to bloody school just for you. on a saturday), Don't discuss the case first with the other group member. Instead, hop down to SUBWAY for a nice refreshing sandwich.
5) When that group member has arrived and called you, take your own bloody sweet time to go up. Let's see... She took about an hour before she finally could master the stairs to join in the discussion. Try to beat that. No one is that challenged.
6) Insist on arranging many meetings. which take place in school. at night. so that people who do not live on campus can shoot you the disbelieving look.
7) Since you have not done your research, make the excuse that since you are not from computing faculty, you wouldn't know anything. I would think a 3rd year science student would know more about research than me. Thn happily annouce that the other girls HAVE to help you since you are not from computing.
8) Ask whether SDE is in NUS.
(I think by this time, she could feel the hatred oozing out of me.)
9) Keep on hinting to the other group members to help you do research.
10) Boast that you would do your research by the end that day and... don't submit in the work to the person who is compiling.


i had many happy tree friends thought running thru my head during that hour. if i could, i could happily stab her eyes out with a blunt toothpick.

fuck. i'm super upset. I don't mind pairing up with strangers but this is scraping the bottom of the leeching-losers barrel. What on earth did i do do to Sathish? Why me?

The other girl is no better. when i emailed her my free slots, she replied with her own timetable. As if the effort to look through my mail and see which free slots were common. And on the day we met up with our research, she brought a thumbdrive where she had saved her research. a fucking thumbdrive. without a fucking laptop. and not even smsing me to ask whether i would bring my laptop. But it was okay.. seeing how her research was just copy and paste. from the same fricking website.

Sometimes, i can't believe how stupid people can be. YET, such people prove to be beyond the lowest of expectations.

As you can tell, incompetence irritates the fuck out of me.

i cannot wait for wednesday to end.

In an attempt to enrich our lives, we happily trooped off to chinatown to do some much needed cultural research.. Chinatown is simply awesome! Of course, you would need a knowledgeable tour guide and we had the best one there is aka Claryce. Then we had assistant tour guide Sherlin.. Through them, we discovered many hidden nooks of Chinatown and i even managed to score a very pretty gold necklace for jie jie!

We were supposed to go for a lecture but after the geek in me put up a mild fight, we just skipped the lecture to do more cultural research. The fight went like this:

me: we should go for lecture.
claryce: bye
me: okay then we shall not go for lecture.

Claryce is very persuasive isn't she?


So all in all, it was an excellent day indeed. :):):)

here's the company right before we started the long trek through Chinatown



First stop... Earrings! Which explains the insulted look on Claryce's face. But she's gonna do a really really pretty earring for me. YAY! can't wait!



Buddha!


So! The mission was to get Alvinna and Asilah to eat some delectable chinese dessert. Note their skeptical faces!


Resistance is futile!


Did we succeed? Tune in to find out! (Claryce hasn't uploaded the pics frm her camera yet laaaa)


Oh. The Suspense! is so not killing you. okay fine! moving along! BTW, i refuse to put any pics of myself here coz i really do look a tad bigger than usual! But i guess we walked off all tt fat coz by the time i took photos in the night, i looked a little better! Hahaha! Vanity. Thy name is Adeline.

Anyways! I went back to Chinatown coz JY said he knew a really really good cantonese dim sum place there.

Finally met up with my kaki! The last time we met, my hair was brown while hers was black.. Now, my hair is black while hers is dyed. That's helluva long time considering i grew my dyed hair out!

2 years ago in Six Flags, Houston, Texas


Here's the unglamourous background for the reunion!


kaki and JY


Thankfully, what the restaurant lacked in ambience, it made up for in yummilicious food! It was really good. Would def go back again if i knew how to get back to it! I had the best seat as i could see an old lady picking a fight with a waiter.. Dinner and a show! how much more can you ask for?


Chinatown is super pretty at night. Here's something i never do unless im with kaki :take a shot with scenery all by myself



We went exploring again and the shopaholic in me couldn't bear it anymore. I can resist anything except temptation! :):)

Here's a candid shot. JY had to explain to me what each banner meant so that i could pick out the nicest one for my family! Believe me when i said we went through many before deciding on one!


I love love the banner with gold words here. :) Still debating about whether i should go back to buy it!



Just realised tt i bought many accessories but no clothes for CNY. Seriously contemplating about going half naked. Gah. Okay to end off a perfect day, im just gonna end it with a not so perfect activity which is to research for IT. zzzz

just ended another long school day.

My contact admin lecturer is so cynical, somone should get that man a McDonald Happy Meal.

Finally stopped procrastinating and put on braces. They hurt a little but what makes it unbearable is that it takes me twice as long to eat chocolates! It only hit me hard on the 2nd day of wearing braces tt i'm gonna have to get used to this for at least a year.That's 12 whole months of asking people "is there anything stuck in my braces?" This had better be worth it.

Join the $4k smile club! We've got jackets.

So with the arrival of feb comes the much hyped up V day. whee. i hate flowers for one simple reason: they die.

Don't mind me.. feeling a tad grouchy. It's just that i always felt that something exciting is gonna happen to me.. Like if i turn around the corner, and TADA! that very-exciting-shake-my-life-up event would happen... but right now it just feels like pffft. that corner ain't gonna come. People say then do something exciting.. But what? there isnt much exciting stuff i can do in spore.

But! I wud really like to ride a rollercoaster like in 6 flags..spore only has the reverse bungee and im not interested in that.. i wan a real real rollercoaster ride!