http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOqXlbWf9Io
i kinda like this video.. Kudos to dan for introducing it to me.. heh.. would like to see the lecturer in real life though!
right now, im really upset with my group members.. i can't say much to their faces coz i got another 1 and a half years to go (wtf am i doing in a place where i obviously don't belong?). so im just gonna rant out my ravings so as to be in a better mood when i face them tml.
I know my japan trip wasn't exactly happening at the best time.. But when ur parents ask u to jump, you ask "how high?" plus it was real convenient for the rest of the family. I mean, i know i was enjoyin the benefits but i don't think it is right for you to lie to the lecturer that i had the tutorial work with me and just ran off to japan with it. i know about desperate measures but sometimes u gotta think of the person u are using as ur shield. Fantastic for you but haven you ever wondered how i might feel? about the precarious position you are putting me in without my consent? The lecturer is gonna think tt im bloody irresponsible and may even mark me down.
The worst part is tt you can even tell me to my face tt "we thought you wouldnt mind since you seem so happy go lucky" WTF. who wouldn't not mind? oh and adding in all those "lol"s in ur sms-es is not gonna make me feel any better.
now i have to lie. to cover ur ass. and blow mine. and if i fail to lie properly, the pressure of the whole grp is on me. and i have to think of a bloody lie!!!!!!!!
how can anybody be so mean? how can anybody just use someone else without giving any thought to their position? how can anybody be so stupid to use such a terrible excuse? how could you have done this?how can anybody be so selfish? i thought we were friends.
what is it about me tt makes everyone think tt it's okay to hurt me? i mean, up to today, im still not over bloody pearlyn's evil hurtful blog post and lies.
isn't it comforting to know tt even if you are a loner, you can still get hurt by project members?
I really really really feel like crying. and nothing is gonna help. edited because everything has been sorted out and i've been mollified.