http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOqXlbWf9Io

i kinda like this video.. Kudos to dan for introducing it to me.. heh.. would like to see the lecturer in real life though!

right now, im really upset with my group members.. i can't say much to their faces coz i got another 1 and a half years to go (wtf am i doing in a place where i obviously don't belong?). so im just gonna rant out my ravings so as to be in a better mood when i face them tml.


I know my japan trip wasn't exactly happening at the best time.. But when ur parents ask u to jump, you ask "how high?" plus it was real convenient for the rest of the family. I mean, i know i was enjoyin the benefits but i don't think it is right for you to lie to the lecturer that i had the tutorial work with me and just ran off to japan with it. i know about desperate measures but sometimes u gotta think of the person u are using as ur shield. Fantastic for you but haven you ever wondered how i might feel? about the precarious position you are putting me in without my consent? The lecturer is gonna think tt im bloody irresponsible and may even mark me down.

The worst part is tt you can even tell me to my face tt "we thought you wouldnt mind since you seem so happy go lucky" WTF. who wouldn't not mind? oh and adding in all those "lol"s in ur sms-es is not gonna make me feel any better.

now i have to lie. to cover ur ass. and blow mine. and if i fail to lie properly, the pressure of the whole grp is on me. and i have to think of a bloody lie!!!!!!!!

how can anybody be so mean? how can anybody just use someone else without giving any thought to their position? how can anybody be so stupid to use such a terrible excuse? how could you have done this?how can anybody be so selfish? i thought we were friends.

what is it about me tt makes everyone think tt it's okay to hurt me? i mean, up to today, im still not over bloody pearlyn's evil hurtful blog post and lies.

isn't it comforting to know tt even if you are a loner, you can still get hurt by project members?

I really really really feel like crying. and nothing is gonna help.

edited because everything has been sorted out and i've been mollified.

here are some pic collages put together for my convenience... tried to put them in the last post but blogger wudnt let me do so.. GAH!

setting off!


foodies foodies foodies!



heh i got a bit frustrated at the end so the pic doenst have as many words as it shudhave but still.. enjoy!

what can i say?

I love Japan! love love love!


Seriously, i have now changed my dream to "living and workin in Japan for a while". I mean.. who can resist staying in a country where
1) no one digs their nose in public! YAY!
2) The weather is deliciously cold.. Your makeup won't get ruined! plus the wind will definately slap you awake!
3) You can dress up in any way you like and not get stared at!
4) The guys all wear suits/ blazers to work *SWOON*
5) Everyone is so courteous! People actually line up to get onto the train.. Plus! they patiently wait for the people to get off the train before boarding. I love the tradition of bowing too!
6) have i mentioned the hot (x3) guys yet?? heh! rosy cheeks, blazers, tanned looking *whistles*... nice dressing.. and i never knew plucked eyebrows cud look so good! Fell in love quite a few times!

Japan is THE city man.. I really wanna go back!
The scenery is awesome and i love how they have managed to fuse together western influence together with their own culture. It's amazing how their cultural roots are so strong there. ahhhh!i heart japan!

We just came back so there's no time to do much photoshop to join the pics together so im just gonna leave u with a few snapshots.. I was the appointed photographer so you can guess how many photos i took! hahaha!

some very wallpaper-ish scenery






some shots directed by my parents










fooling ard with the camera










of course.. all these would not have been possible without the parental squad so presenting........




heh.. so sweet right!

okok gotta catcha a few winks! plus jx is hurrying me.. shall post more later! i love my candid shots of jie jie! hahahaha! :)

lately, it seems like everyone wans to catch "The Departed".

kinda ironic, isnt it? how the west always goes "chinese people like to copy us!" and then they go take one of our movies plots.

Of course it ain't gonna be the same since it's Hollywood, hereby gurantee-ing

1) at least one steaming love story (sex scenes come free)

2) Explosions. Many of them.

3) A car chase.

4) a black guy who knows everything. I'm talkin about those kinda informants with the huge bling bling and goes "wassup dawg/ bro?" complete with the clutching handshake.


snore. how boring.

so....... haze in singapore.

the psi is supposed to be in the range of 80 to 130 right now.. i have this sneakin suspicion that something is up with the dude measuring the PSI level right now. . there are times when the level jumps from 80 to 120 in one hour. and then slides right down the very next. or it can be super hazy out there making u say must be in the 100 liao.. and some report over the radio goes "its 80 now".. utter bullsh*t.

the haze is making everyone grumpy right now.. its a torture to get out of the house.. you cant run, you can't swim.. you walk 5 mins and you are perspiring like mad even though you have just bathed before you came out..

haiz! the only good thing i can see abt the haze is it gives everyone something to talk about. of course, the indonesian govt's comments only serve to add more fuel to the fire. is it just me? or when i read some of their comments, i'll go "did he just say that? was it a joke? ha. ha. coz its not funny."

comment #1: blame the haze on the wind
oh.. this was one of their first comments.. and everyone raised their eyebrow.

comment #2: you should thank us for our forests give out oxygen.
this was said by their environment ministers i tink.. which is really.........
hello! you are burining those said forests, hence by ur reasoning, you are depleting the oxygen supply.. and btw basic chemistry knowledge: burning stuff = eating up oxygen.. heh.

comment#3: the prime minister is scolding us (the ministers) but what can we do?
take action? DUH. stopping a few fires may be a small step.. but nevertheless, its a step better than sitting on ur ass whining to newspapers and asking people what to do. arent governments supposed to be the representatives of the people? this comments make these people sound as if they went to Tom Cruise's school of how to conduct PR (courses include jumpin on couches to show undying love and how NOT to promote ur own religion)

comment#4: (this is my ultimate fav).. We burn the forests because of the agricultural cycle. But because we do not have the money to do it in another way that doesnt cause haze, we do it this way. it's your fault because if you had bought our goods at higher prices, we would have had the money to do it.
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You know one thing that irks me in life? it's when people are wrong, and start making lame exuses to cover their bums. If you had told me, "yes, we are wrong, but there is nothing we can do about it becuase of the lack of funds.. we have to do it this way. Perhaps you can help us financially? so that we can get more sophiscated equipment to do this?" i would gladly help. tell me the truth. i can handle it.

No need to try to push the fuckin blame onto me.. Don't try to put me on a guilt trip coz i didnt pay higher prices for your country's goods. I pay what i tink the good is worth. that's the way the market rolls baby. Not because of sympathy. No Singaporean is gonna rush to an indonesian goods store and go "okay! i'm paying more.. stop burnin the trees now!" People hate to be manipulated. so if you gonna tell the victims suffering the consequences of your forest burning that it's their fault in the first place, they are not gonna be happy.

DON'T tell me it's my fault in the first place with such a far reaching excuse. it's like "my mother's uncle's dog's sibling's owner's grocery store owner." Too many ifs. How can u predcit tt if we had bought your stuff at higher prices, the money would eventually reach the right people? we can trace the haze to .... ur fire. burning down the forest. no ifs. so whose fault is it?

DON'T try to put me on a guilt trip to make me feel happier about my situation.

lesson: if you need financial help, no need to come up with a shitty brain excuse. tell me the reason why, how much and i'll do what i can do. no need for such shit stirring comments.

So really, instead of giving out such interesting comments, wouldnt it be better to just do something about the haze already? PS Whining? does not count as doing something.

in other words, this haze is not amusing and the longer it goes on with lovely dips which some doodlebrain obviously making up the numbers every hour (in some knucklebrain bid to see whether he can get away with it)... the more pissed the general population is going to be.

i love my new blogskin! woohoo!

It's the calm before the storm right now. Huge presentation next week and we haven't thought of a proper way to present. YIKES! A big thanks to Jinyu who helped us tremendously with the fights scenes though.. THANK YOU Jinyu!

In a bid to sound intelligent in my HR report, decided to watch grey's anatomy for inspiration(yeah right)..So! i spent the last few days watching grey's anatomy only to find....the collection is incomplete! it lasts only to the part where she has her hand inside the body to steady the bomb and im like waaaaaaaatttttt? Who die? What happened! GAH! Christine Ricci does look better in that episode though.. she was pretty good. ahh!!!! but i wanna see what happened! it's my emotional education! groan groan groan!

Driving has been really fun so far.. Im hoping to get my license asap.. Imagine me driving ard to pick friends up for short meals! hooray! Now if only i can control my speed, i'll be okay.. hopefully! Learned to do vertical parking but im really excited about parallel parking.. Saw this dude do an awesome job in parallel parking that i had to clap. in my car. with my instructor. heh. i tink tt gave the guy a huge ego boost! and the bestest news so far: no more mounting of curbs. HOORAY!

In other news, parental squad has flown off to HK with grandparents and sister in tow. Yeahhhh like any trip will be fun without me. hmph. I'm trying to comfort myself with the thought tt mickey mouse speaks cantonese over there. so HA!......... yeahh it's not working.

The haze is getting better isn't it? Mal and Samuel had this awesome plan to burn all the books (shao shu) to add to the haze PSI. if you can't beat them.. join them! we are such geniuses!

name 24 people on the top of your head now.
1. Daddy Tay
2. Mummy Tay
3. Karen Tay
4. Audrey Tay
5. Christine Leong
6. Malcolm Ng
7. Jillyann
8. Pei-o in search of an english name
9. Wenting
10. Jinyu
11. Kaki
12. Jianxiang
13. Sangeetha
14. Siti
15. Yiqi
16. Yujen
17. Dan
18. Majo
19. Chenyuan
20. Hanwei
21. Benjamin
22. Adelene
23. Andrea
24. theodore

okay now questions -
is 9 single?
Thankfully, ting is happily single. Though i say .. GO GET HIM! heh. you are gonna kill me arent you?

will you date 20?
Hanwei? HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

is 17 a guy or a girl?
Dan is most definately male.

have 15 and 2 ever dated?
Mummy and my girl friend? super freaky laaaaa..

are you younger or older than 3? by how many months?
Im younger than jie jie(DUH) by (12 x 3) 36 months.. though i must say im much more mature than her. HAHAHAAHHAAHAHAHHA

have you ever seen 7 naked?
Jill? No. and i don't plan to.

where does 19 live?
&*(^% i know it's near school and can take 188 to go home!

when was the last time you saw 12?
AGES AGO! urmm i tink it was at the X man show.

ever watched a movie with 5?
Yes.. i love christine to bits and pieces! i do almost everything with her.. hey! we grew up together.. even bathed together when we were children! Love watching movies with her coz we both shriek at the least frightening things!

how tall is 23?
Andrea... same height as me i guess.

do you love 16?
yes.. but not in a way tt would make his gf mad.

do you go to the same school as 14?
yes. but I'm not in the same faculty as her.. BOO!

have you ever had classes with 11?
nope. she's from NTU laaa..

where was 21 born?
ben? urmmm. tts a very good question. same year as hanwei?

have you ever hugged 18?
yes.

what is 8's middle name?
gee whiz.. i tink we are tryin to come up with it! hahaha but her first name is leann which i simply love!

is 13 a nice person?
Sangeetha? DUH! she's my first friend in SDE! heh. love u geetha!

would you rather 1 die or you die?
I would rather die than let my father die.

is 4 older than you?
most definately NOT! Audrey is younger than me by 9 years! love how i can lord it over her.. heh :)

would you kiss 24?
urm.. a friendly one maybe?

have you ever swum with 16?
no. and i dun plan to.. hahhahaha!

are 22 and 24 good friends?
adelene and theodore? no. They know each other but they aren't exactly close.

will 3 and 7 make a good couple?
No. because 1) They are both attached.
2) Both girls prefer boys.

have 15 ever given me a birthday present?
i can't remember. Most prob not?

how long have you known 13?
I knew who geetha was in JC.. But only got to know her well in year 1 so.. 3 years! Wow!

if 5 and 19 was drowning, who wouldyou save?
christine and chenyuan... definately christine. i can't live without her.

will 2 be willing to kiss 6?
Yeah.. My mom is his godmother after all and she loves him.. Just a nice family one. If you are talkin about anything on the mouth or involving tongue, my mom would FREAK. OUT.

NOW PASS THIS ON TO 3,4,7,16,18,22,23
Jie jie, Audrey, Jillyann (update the blog already!) yujen...oh crap most dun have blogs! hahahhahah

insanely frustrated. I know i shouldn't let these kinda things affect me, but i just wish that we had never grown up.

If we had never grown up, i wouldn't have to feel hurt and lonely for all the times when i needed help, and you never reached your hand out.

If we had never grown up, i won't be feeling as shitty as i do right now.

Note to oneself: If your primary/ secondary school friends (or should i say acquaintences?) contact you out the blue, something is up. And it's not good.

this is so obviously not my week.