She tells enough white lies to ice a wedding cake.
- - - Margot Asquith

you know what's fucked up?

i hate it when you think the whole world owes you a living. i hate it when you think having a boyfriend is a valid excuse for cancelling at the last minute. i hate people who pretend to go along with stuff and then back out a few days/hours before it.. its like telling you "hey.. i have a life.. and you don't.. why don't you wait ard till i'm free next? you are just a back up to my social life"

what's up with just givin a honest answer like "hey.. i don't think i can make it" upfront when people ask? why go along with it till the last minute? people make time and plans for you.. to have it repeatedly shot to death a few days or hours before. what the fuck do you take us for? i don't get all these people who keep on cancelling at the last minute. they are as good as their word.. and their word is no good.

i just had a friend cancel on me for this chalet thing that we had planned. i wud be cool if not for certain details
1) among the 4 of us, it was not exactly easy to find a date where everyone wud be in singapore. and we had confirmed it over and over again that it wud take place on the 2nd week of dec.

2) i was supposed to go on a trip to malaysia with my family on 2nd week of dec but because it wud be the only week where all 4 friends wud be in singapore together, i told my family that i wud forego the trip.

3) my mother piled up this guilt trip on me.. and because of me.. the whole family is not gg up to malaysia anymore. now i feel guilty because of the line "its all about making either your family or your friends happy. Choose"

4) i made my choice.. and you have let me down so badly.. it's disbelieving. you didnt even give a fuckin excuse. and didnt reply back to my sms. all the details were settled.. all you had to do was book the damn chalet and turn up. but you didnt even bother bookin the chalet.. which makes me wonder how sincere you were abt turning up.

the fury of it all.

5) and now.. you have the cheek to tell another friend that i'm furious because you didnt book the chalet. HELLO! i wud be totally cool if you didnt manage to book the chalet.. BUT YOU CANCELLED! without a fuckin reason. tt is the main reason why im furious. dun give a shit abt the chalet part. two faced. bile is rising in my throat just at the thought of your conniving actions.

you have no enemies.. but on the other hand.. you are intensely disliked by your friends.

ah wells... i will always love the false image i had of you.

6) someone tried to make excuses for you by saying that you need more time for you boyfriend.

No. No. No. No. a boyfriend does not validate your lousy actions. spend all the time you want with him. just don't take people for granted. pretending to go along with stuff and then ALways pulling out at the last minute. and in what way does havin a boyfriend excuse your behaviour?

we may not be very close..*cold assessing look* you know, i may not have many friends in NUS.. but it's alright with me. At least i noe.. that, unlike you, im not a lousy friend to the few i have. i have no energy and time to be superficial like you.. giving out empty promises.. selfishly viewing others as back ups to your social calendar..Manuplatively lying through your teeth... had enough of that in secondary school. but.. hey! whatever makes you happy right?

you have no enemies. But, on the other hand, you are intensely disliked by your friends.