oscar night


because of you...
i can get through the night.
the world stopped crashing down around my ears.
my heart stopped crackin.
i cud curb my urge to stip off my clothes and run naked into the streets
i managed to finally cry.
i started smiling and laughin through my tears..
the knife stopped twisting.
my issues became stupid and funny.. something to laugh at and not cry over.
i can face tomorrow.

because of jillian.. who lost count of how many "oh my gawd"s i said.
because of pei... who made me laugh over the most insignificant stuff. and gave me the cutest icon ever!
because of tim.. who listened (btw tim. pls remember that you are banned from my blog)
because of hanwei who made me see the bright side in it all.. and was traumatised aft our conversation(im really sorry i told you to go swallow a knife)
because of alden who said the one line which cheered me up immensely.
because of jianxiang who was such a sweetie..
because of pearlyn who was very logical and then emotional.. and then funny abt toilet pump
because of jinyu.. who will always cheer me up with the very thought of him!

most importantly.. because of cheeyen.. KAKI! i love you so much! cant believe that you called all the way from canada! once i heard ur voice.. it seemed so.. i immediately knew that i could get through tonight, tomorrow.. everyday! before u called.. i was feelin miserable about the vast distance between us.. was tinkin why couldnt we be back in holly hall where i cud just reach over to the next bed and hug you.. missing you terribly. was tinkin what a poor substitute MSN can be for a hug from you.. well.. u get the picture.. and then my handphone rings and i hear your lovely voice. im sorry.. im just so amazed that you would call me! long distance call! oh my gawd.. the thot of it makes me wanna cry all over again! actually.. i feel like laughin when i tink about how you called to say a few of your favourite lines! and i got to feast my eyes on you thru webcam.. oh my gawd i just found out tt you got exams in like a few minutes and u took time off ur revision to call to ask whether i was doing alright! and u didnt even tell me as i went on and on... i love u so much dear..you are right.. we could get through NYC being poor.. i can get through anything after that.

pinch me.. im dreaming.. what did i ever do in my life to deserve such wonderful friends?

i have learnt that sometimes.. u help more when u just do nothing and quietly listen..

i'm lovin my angels.



i have no right to feel this way. incomprehensible stupidity.