*smug grin* wenting is the sweetest most darling-fied girl i have ever met! On sat night while i was in the depths of despair, lookin at my notes and feeling the most immense sense of loss and self=pity.. wenting called me! not only that.. the darling actually stopped by my house to give me tim tams and chocolates to cheer me up! when she asked me to come out of my house.. i did not dare believe that she would actually be there! bounded out of my house into the street where i promptly screamed my heart out! hugged her to bits.. couldnt believe my very eyes! yesh girl.. i am waiting for tues! oh gawd... how can time go by so slowly??? Though i must admit i have not studied for tues exams!
the paper on sat was reallie bad for me coz..
1) i felt supremely upset after the paper.. dun wanna fail!
2) pple were actually happy aft it.. which mens the standard is not gonna be lilke stats... im totally fucked up here


these holidays are shaping up to be very interesting indeed.. c'est la vie beau!

*screams and leaps about in glee* Wenting is BACK!
just put down the phone with her..
oh my gawd.. i feel like crying! It was absolutely super to hear her voice in the midst of my misery.. although i must admit she must have had quite a shock to hear me screamin as soon as i picked up her call!
darn.. i really am crying! out of pure glee! i'm already dreamin of the very moment we meet.. it will be in town.. and pei, ting and me will run towards each other frm different directions.. THEN! we shall EMBRACE! and start squeallin . as we engage in a group hug we shall jump and rotate the circle! HAHAHAHAHA! i can just imagine both their faces now.

Li wenting! i am a very very very free person.. so i can personally gurantee you that if we go according to my plan i will make sure you be so busy that you wun even have time to breathe!
*evil cackle* yesh my pretty!
this is my list so far
- hunt everywhere to get a tast of the mooncake she missed
- go over to her hse where we used to mug for A levels and where i had to run to to cry over you duan. now i can go there and hang out in her room.. and reminisce abt those times..
- drag her all over town for christmas shopping
- sit her down for a major talk
- test her level of endurance by showing her my 3000 pictures of houston! Beware ting! Many before you have failed this test... my parents and sisters failed.. tim failed.. hahahahahha! the only one who passed was christine!
- bring her to my cousin hse where we can have a great time with copper (yes.. copper is gonna be in my cousin hse for a whole week! am planningt o stay over the very same week he is there)
- Eat CHICKEN RICE!

okok i got to get back to study. i have like 9 more lecture notes to study in like 6 hours. yikes. im so gonna fail a core. shittified.
anyways WELCOME BACK WENTING! i love you so much!

this blog is supposed to be on hiatus till 29th November.. Keyword: supposed 

ok. im weak! it's either trying to make sense out of a jumble of physics and maths or writing in a blog.. so this blog is off hiatus!

i was discussing with pei that when i grow up im gonna make a scary movie! it will be SCARIER than the ring and all.. coz im gonna make a movie with all my lecture notes.. Pei suggested a very good opening for the movie.. it will be like Mr Bean.. except instead of Mr Bean dropping down.. we will have a student drop down and then a stack of notes dropped onto the head.. and blood will GUSH out of the stack of notes! yesss my lovelies.. there will be a lot of blood so any blood doners? I have to start collecting blood now.. hahaha! I no wan use shit ketchup sauce.. coz my movie will be the REAL thing!

My promotional posters will be the scariest! put in orchard tunnel.. no one wanna walk there liaoz.. coz the posters will contain lines like "You think you know it all.. but do you really?" or (my gawd i love this line) "in case you forget.. your exam was yesterday" HAHAHAHA both lines were pei's contribution.. the very words that strike fear in any student's heart!

the exam period is not up yet so i can't start givin out my awards.. but so far .. here are the nominations:

Most "dun noe whether to be horrified for them or to laugh with them" action done
1) "Not knowing that the exam was an open book exam" by Ah Lai
2)"Not knowing that the exam was an open book exam and not bringing many notes to venue.. hence not much material to refer to during exam and still able to laugh" by Andy
3) "Sleeping during the exam paper" By Jinyu
4) "Going to exam venue 3 hours early" By Pearlyn

Most Screwed Up Paper
1)Professional Communication where i blanked out
2)Building Materials where the whole list of tips the teacher gave.. didnt come out.
3)Research Methods where the exam paper was 12 pages thick.

Most Mentioned Line
1)"If only we could fly" uttered at evey flight of stairs encountered.. by Adel
2) "Ouch" by Jinyu
3) "you ah..." by Pearlyn
4) "dun be a bitch" by Hanwei
5) "You wan go mum mum?" by Adeline

Most Heartbreaking decision made during exam period
1) Not going for Jill's birthday party on the night before my paper
2) Not going for Alden's party on friday.. also the night before one paper
3) Hanging up on Pearlyn to study for Research Methods
4) Not consoling an unmentionable someone
5) Whether to go cut and dye hair with pei and shivani on monday.. A day before my last paper.

Cutest Guy Spotted
1) Cute guy in photocopying room(24th Nov). Saw him and accidentally hit the wrong button. causing me to print 10 empty pages!
2) guy in engineering canteen on wed night.. was droolin for a different purpose.
3) Hanwei's fren in jacket. must don jacket to look presentable
4) Pearlyn's "look like face kana smashed by a pan" cute guy.. HAHAHAHAHA!
Funniest Cartoon Drawn
1) "Spaceboy's costume" by Adel
2) "Thoughts going through Hanwei's mind when he is studying" by Adel
3) "Anime figure that looks like porn" by Jinyu
4) "Where Jinyu's true name indicates where he should be" by Pearlyn
5) "Middle finger" By Hanwei

Most Bimbotic Act done
1) walking all the way to chinese library to find a book coz the search result said that it was in "CL".. didnt realised that "CL" meant "Central Library" where i already was. was thinkin why a book on statistics would be in the chinese section...
2) Losing 4 straight games of bridge to Hanwei and frens.
3) Losing 7 consecutive games of Bingo to Jinyu.

Most Amusing Act
1) "The ants on his Backside :Craning neck to look at girls/ sitting prettily in his chair" By Hanwei
2) "Drawing anime in a specially bough sketch pad.. while other pple tink that he is studying hard" By Jinyu

Most Irritating Person
1)Girl talkin on Handphone in a small study room in the library (she thought the room was soundproof)
2) Building Lecturer for pulling such a bad april fool joke on all students. The list of tips he gave shud be titled "what NOT to study"

Person i miss the most
Jillian
Pei
Wenting
Jillian
Neela
Christine
Pei
Cheeyen
Wei Leen
Wenting

Vote Now!

Songs listened to (most frequently) during exam period
Please take note: lyrics are often the part where i start singing along to. Any ressemblance to any persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental.

1) Trees - Marty Casey..
it'll be you and me up in the trees.. up in the sky. it's a combination for disaster
2) Dance dance - Fall Out Boy
we are falling apart to half time.. and these are the lives you'd love to lead
3) Wonderwall(acoustic) - Oasis
And all the roads that lead you there were winding.. And all the lights that light the way are blinding
4) Hands Down - Dashboard Confessional
Breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep
5) Pretty Vegas - INXS
With everything that you do is wrong... And you feel like you can barely survive...When those around you are crumbling downwards ...Buried in the sunset alive
6) Grand Theft Autumn - Fall Out Boy
I could be an accident but I'm still trying. That's more than I can say for him
7) Oooh Child Things are gonna get Easier - Stylistics
someday we gonna put it together and get it all done
8) Tell Me More - OST Grease
he showed up.. splashing around.. summer fling .. dun mean a thing but uh! on a summer night..
9) What's Love got to do With - Tina Turner
You must understand that the touch of your hand makes my pulse react..that it's only the thrill of boy meeting girl. Opposites attract. What's love but a sweet old fashioned notion? Who needs a heart when a heart can be broken?
10) I say a little Prayer - OST My Best Friend's Wedding
Forever and ever you'll stay in my heart and i will love you.. Forever and ever we never will part. oh how i love you.. together forever that's how it must be.. to live without you will only be heartbreak for me.. please love me too.. please say you love me too.. answer his prayer now..
11) Mr Brightside - The Killers
It started out with a kiss.. how did it end up like this.. Now they're going to bed. And my stomach is sick. And it's all in my head. But she's touching his chest now ..He takes off her dress now. Let me go! Cus I just can't look.. It's killing me and taking control
12) Beautiful Ones - Suede
here they come, the beautiful ones
13) Two Beds and A Coffee Machine
Another ditch in the road, you keep moving..Another stop sign, you keep moving on.. And the years go by so fast..Wonder how I ever made it through
14) Luxurious - Slim Thug & Gwen Stefani
There's platinum lightning in the sky.. This kind of love is getting expensive
15) La Belle et La Bad Boy - MC Solaar
Les sous-ensembles dans les grands ensembles s'assemblent, La belle et le bad boy
16) Here We Go Again- Kelly
You're playing yourself. i basically like the piano part in the intro.
17) Crazy - Simple Plan
is everybody going crazy?
18) Angels - Robbie Williams
I'm loving angels instead.

i noe.. it was just a few minutes ago when i said tt my blog wud be on hiatus..
but i need to point out a very sad fact of my life.. my exam papers start on jillian's birthday.. and end on tim's birthday. sighzzz..

on to more serious stuff. i promised yiqi tt i wud do my best to inform my friends abt this..
World vision is havin this programme where u can help to buy stuff for needy children all over the world for the christmas season..
what dear kind hearted yiqi wans to do is pool together money to donate this huge ger (they use them as houses) to a mogolian family. i can vouch for yiqi's sincerity and honesty. So no worries abt being conned.

u can check out the details here
http://glitter-rie.blogspot.com/

deadline is 28th Nov

deadline is

happy 20th birthday jill! noe this is one of the pics u prefer.. sorry for the late post.. my hello couldnt work for a while 

Dreary.. dull and totally sad..
that's what my life would be without Jillian.
it scares me to think of how my life would be without you.
suntanning.. bitching.. bad breakups. shopping, late night talks on the phone, MSN, clubbing, laughing, using the computer together, watching comedy central, crying, exclaiming "oh my gawd"s, suntanning talks, sushi.. i could not have done them all without you.. i love you girl..

Happy 20th Birthday my Dear..

i have seen them come and go.

maybe that's why.. no man no cry.

taste the sushi.

just found out tt im not eligible for SEP. damn disappointed now.

think i shall just go bury myself under a blanket and not come out anymore.

let me take a moment and several pictures to say a belated farewell to one of my favourite places in the world. 

To Six Flags Astroworld.. to us.. u will always be the place where we are forever young.. where we rode the rollar coaster of life to the extremes! 

I'm really gonna miss you.. 

how can you possibly close down? 

you are the place where summer days drifted away.. 

was the sight of these 2 rainbows a sign of hope or one of farewell? 

in future, would pearlyn just dismiss this picture.. or recognise this place as the place where she slogged man hours? 

in future when we look at this picture.. will we tink of it as the employee clock in and out place.. or the place where we hung out to wait for the rest to bike home with? the place where we complained, cried, laughed and played? 

will we forget the uniforms we were made to wear? 

will we forget the long walk in to the employee gate? 

will we be able to ever forget the screams and laughs we had? Not to mention the thrills we experienced.. 

thanks for the ride Astroworld.. you'll always be in our hearts 

just thought that i wud share these conversation snippets with you..

conversation snippet #1
penny: so we were walking...
me: ermmm penny.. can u speed up the story pace? i need to pee..
penny: oh okok.. we were running...

conversation snippet #2
penny: well after milo(her dog) went off his leash.. he dashed across the road.. but i was wearin slippers so cannot run after him.. and i got more education and brains than him.. i took the overhead bridge across the road.

conversation snippet #3
***: it was so small .. can fuck nose. hahahhahahahaha!

conversation snippet #4
george carlin: why is it when planes nearly collide in air..they call it a "near miss"? a collision is what is a "near miss"! look. they nearly missed..

conversation snippet #5
penny: do you know.... pauline is .. like.. really smart?? ya.. because.. she is like.. really smart.. *pause* okay.. i just said something very stupid, didn't i?

conversation snippet #6
me: .. and i also put the song by hootie and the blowfish into ur car cd!
dad: who is that? a boy band?

Question of the day:
why do university students still ask everyone ard them their marks?

i'm not against it.. i just think that it is incredibly stupid and ridiculous. Let's face it. It is no point asking people thier damn fuckin results. Those who did well will tell you their grades irregardless of whether you asked them. Those who did not do well won't tell you their grades irregardless of how many times you asked them. So seriously, what is the fucking point of asking?

Today, we got back our results of the group project report and our oral presentations.. So, im the only idiot frm my grp sitting there flipping thru the report and reading the comments teacher wrote.. What were the rest of the class doing? going "PSSSSST! what's ur mark? coz we so wan to noe" finding out every single fuckin grp's mark. like piss off already. one girl didnt get tt i didnt wan to participate in the "oh-let's-compare-grades-for-goodness-know-what" game and kept tellin me where to find the mark. lady. get the hint. get a fuckin clue from the way i'm lookin bored and restless and repeating "whatever'

at that very moment, my teacher asked "are you guys comparing marks? why aren't you guys reading your comments?" echoing my exact sentiments.. i fell in love with her right there and then when the teacher asked "isn't it very childish?" i mean.. come on..you have got only a few minutes to read through all the teacher's comments before giving it back.. why not read the comments so that you know where you went wrong?

1) why would knowing other people's grades help you? what? so if i got 87 and you got 86.. do you want me to give you my marks? or if i got 67 and you got 69.. whoop-pee-do! 2 miserable marks whcih would count as 0.00312 in the overall grade! what a big fuckin difference!

and when we got back our marks for oral.. this guy actually rolled all ard the classroom on his chair holdin his damn paper slip (where his oral grades was written) in front of him like some criminal abt to take photo. wtf?

2) why on earth would i want to tell you my marks? what good would that do me? especially when i know im way better than you.. oh how do i know? coz i don't roll ard like some deluded moron askin everyone in sight abt their grades.

next the same girl who was gg PSSsst about the report marks.. we ran into her after class and even before the twit opened her mouth.. i knew what she was gonna ask.. *giggly high ah lian voice* "what u get for oral presentaion ah?" so after a very long moment of silence.. i told her my marks and the guys i was with asked "how about u?" and she went "oh i dun wan tell you all.. HEHEHEHEHEHE!" i looked at her.. looked to the ground floor.. and decided that this girl was born under a lucky star. coz we were on the second floor. she wun die if i threw her over the balcony so shall not bother wasting energy.

seriously.. can anybody help me understand why they bother doing it? to feel good? competitive? what a way to be competitive.

deluded morons.

My current fav song on repeat mode.. *grinz*

Let's start in style,
let's dance for a while
Heaven can wait
we're only watching the skies
Hoping for the best,
but expecting the worst
Are you gonna drop the bomb or not

Let us die young or let us live forever
We don't have the power,
but we never say never
Sitting in a sand-pit, life is a short trip T
he music's for the sad men.

Can you imagine when this race is won
Turn our golden faces into the sun
Praising our leaders, we're getting in tune
The music's played by the, the mad men

Forever young, I want to be forever young
do you really want to live forever, forever and ever
Forever young, I want to be forever young
do you really want to live forever?
Forever young

Some are like water, some are like the heat
Some are a melody and some are the beat
Sooner or later they all will be gone
why don't they stay young
It's so hard to get old without a cause
I don't want to perish like a fading horse
Youth's like diamonds in the sun
and diamonds are forever

So many adventures couldn't happen today
So many songs we forgot to play
So many dreams swinging out of the blue
We let them come true

Forever young, I want to be forever young do you really want to live forever, forever and ever?

"forever young" by alphaville

i just heard mariah carey's "don't forget about us" and nearly died.

watched the mtv of gwen stephanie's "cool" today and boy oh boy do i know how the girl feels in the video.. it's one of the better mtvs i have seen though.

finally my oral presentation is over! yeah! though i must confess, on the friday where every other grp was presenting.. about 99% of the class girls wore striped shirts. which was ultra weird.. dun get me wrong.. one girl wearin a long sleeved striped shirt with hot black pants is nice.. but an entire class of tt uniform? gives the impression that some truck went haywire inside my class.. running over all the girls..pink shirt's presentation disappointed me terribly. coz i had great expectations of him since he is such a know it all and wanna be in the limelight all the time.. but.. he had this irritatin accent and he reminded me of my drivin lesson.. engine cannot start.. the poor boy put so many commas.. semi colons, fullstops all over his speech. and puttin it in the wrong places.. like "good morning *pause* everyone *pause* today my group *pause* will present this.... my *pause* colleague here *pause* mr felix *pause* lim will.."
what the fuck? im not saying i present well.. i noe i sucked. just saying tt it was mildy disappointing to see pink shirt's terrible performance.

hanwei is makin me very worried abt losing my memory. but i was gg thru my usa photos to pick out which ones to send him.. and wooah! i reallie did put on a lot of weight there huh? hahahhhaah! anyways! i was lookin thru the photos and remembering the fun crazy stuff we did there.. i dunnoe.. but when i hear the mention of houston, texas, my ears wud prick up.. dunnoe.. its like a fond attachment to that place. it was there i managed to pluck up enough courage to get on crazy rollar coaster rides(this of coz was my biggest accomplishment there). there, i surprised americans by being able to speak proper english.. how to be stuck all day at a cart wihtout a toilet or meal break.. the limits of my patience. how easy it is to bully me at a job.. how i look like when i scream (thanks to the many candid cameras placed ard the track. damnit)..
tt day.. when i was hanging out with pearlyn and jinyu.. i realised something. everyone noes im a picky eater.. need spicy food and all.. and everyone wonders how a blur useless case like me can survive for 3 months in a foreign country.. and i realised why. coz i had the guys takin care of me.. *shrugs* im lucky i guess. i was the youngest of the whole lot and most of the guys felt tt it was their responsibility to take care of the girls. especially the blur scatter brained idiot who served no purpose other than entertainment( tt wud be me).
im grateful ..
to hanwei for cookin my lunches and then bringin it to work..
to ian and jinyu for cookin breakfast (bacon and bread!) everyday.. and then patiently waitin for me while i rushed ard trying to find last minute stuff. and then pedallin furiously to work..
all the 603 guys for understanding how tired i wud be after work and then cookin sumptious dinners/ suppers/ midnight snacks for me to share in..
for the comfort and support they willingly gave when i felt that the workload was terribly unfair.

there were some good times..
For example, after we watched the star wars movie, i went crazy.. starting drapin myself in the blanket and waving a rolled up calender(i.e. light saber) all over.. i tink jinyu taped me jumpin all around to demostrate the action scenes. or the times when i wud be determined to read my book aft work and then i wud shut myself up in the room.. curled up beside hanwei's readin lamp (gawd.. i love tt lamp!) and sometimes.. i wud drop off to sleep without knowin it.. and the next thing i knew, i wud wake up with a blanket ard me.. my page carefully marked out and the book placed at the side.. or how we wud spend hours at the dvd store debating over the choice of movies! idiots made me watch scary movies and wud mercilessly laugh while i squirmed behind a pillow. *looks pointedly at jinyu* IT was scary at first. then it was anti climax! and remember hanwei's LOTR craze? I was groanin all over it..
how about laundry? i miss the dryer.. remember how ian was ironin his clothes during the first week? aft 4 weeks.. we never did see the iron anymore.. or how jinyu wud be like a camel. he wud sleep all day during the off days.. and then for the rest of the week.. he wud work.. then come back and play computer games till 3 am or so.. im not sure.. but still be perky at 8 am the next day.. imagine a perky jinyu next to a very grumpy adel. i remember slammin tennis balls to yujen till i nearly collapsed. or how durin the one time i cooked.. yujen helped me to prepare a delicious meal.. except tt he used the entire stock of sausages! hahahaha
oh! remember how there was once.. hanwei cooked for 5 people and only 3 people were left eating it.. we were stuffed to the max! no wonder i put on weight! i remember.. hanwei, jinyu and me.. had to resort to playing games to see who wud eat the last taugay! remember the all the work in packin up the laptops to go to the coffee house just for the internet? and the trips to the bank! i loved the coffee house! at least the lightin there was good.. not like the times we were squattin outside a block.. yesh we actually sat in a carpark.. between cars.. and balanced our laptops on our laps while we typed away.. all those bugs!

603 may not have been a perfect cleaned room.. but it was home. aft a bad day at work, u know that once u get back to 603.. everything will be alright.. just take a chilled beer frm the fridge.. eat dinner with the rest and complain like mad.. then take a hot shower. read a book and then go back to bed.

to all 6 flags mates:
So when you're done doing whatever
And when you're through doing whoever You know,
Denton County will be right here waiting for you
Come back to Texas
It's just not the same since you went away
Before you lose your accent
And forget all about the Lonestar State
There's a seat for you at the rodeo
And I've got every slow dance saved
Besides, the Mexican food sucks north of here anyway

happy 20th birthday to dear wenting!
some moments are like the classics.. they have to be celebrated over and over again. your birthday is one such moment.
sometimes its so scary to think of my life without you.. serangoon gardens without you.. i noe you are enjoying yourself in australia.. but it's a comforting thought to know that you will come back soon and i will get to see you! Do you realise how long it has been? anyways girl.. i hope you really enjoy the first day of being 20! may you have many happy days ahead!

to another dear friend of mine..
i feel very very guilty for not being able to fully keep my promise. i know i promised to be there for you.. work is not a very good excuse for me to keep on pushin back our meetings. I'm really sorry. please understand my situation. i know i shouldnt use my project work as an excuse. i'll try to do better next time. please forgive me...

you know there are times when u look calm but there is a huge emotional mess inside you? internal screamin takes place when you see how unfair life can be. i wonder.. if you are manipulative, can you get away with anything? is there no more sense of pride in doing work? is it right to twist facts? if liars always win, why do we still do what we do? why work while others can do the work? all we need is a bit of creativeness to tweak facts and confidence to pull it off. is there no shame felt when one steals credit? liar liar pants on fire

my dog ate half a packet of snail pellets. and now he keeps shakin his head like he is on ectasy. pretty worried abt him..
all in all.. life is not lookin too good. thank goodness i can always count on jill and 23 episodes of comedy central to be the light in the period of misery called "the gloom before exam period"!

happy birthday wenting! (im sorry for such an old photo.. we have to take more photos soon!) 

Now Grandma is a person who everyone likes
she bought you a train and bright shiny bike
but lately she hasnt been coming to dinner
and the last time you saw her,
she looked so much thinner..
Now, your mom and dad said she moved to Peru,
but the truth is she died
and someday you would too..
la la la la la la la la la la
- "Grandma" by Phoebe Buffay-

The cow in the meadow goes moo
the cow in the meadow goes moo
then the farmer hits him on the head and grinds him up
and that's how we get hamburgers!
- "Barnyard Animals" by Phoebe Buffay-

im feelin pretty accomplished now.. finished watching da cheng jin (the korean show) and 2 whole seasons of friends! *does the chicken dance*
i cant wait for monday! im very sure i will beat a hole into jill's bed! the very thot of all the promise of a wonderful day with more comedy acts is.. givin me goosebumps all over!

Things that I wud do if i were a guy for a day
1. Take my shirt off and run around half-naked
2. say "How are you doing?" in my deep sexy voice!
3. im still debating between leavin a manly shadow or findin out how it is like to shave ur chin.. oh wait.. its only for a day.. so i'll go with shaving my chin and neck.. but i tink a 5 o clock shadow is so sexy on a guy .. dun ya tink?
4. shave my head and then look broody..
5. wank myself
6. invite buddies over to watch porn
7. make out with every one of my hot friends!
8. sniff my armpit hair
9. im taller if im a guy right? so it wud be my turn to go "how's the weather down there?" ( i sense pei's laughter)
10. Lastly.. i wud go to the men shops and gasp over the high prices they charge for guy clothes so tt i will be glad to be a girl the next day. or i cud go the clubs and then the cover charge alone wud make me wan be a girl again..

what wud u do?? pray tell!

oscar night


because of you...
i can get through the night.
the world stopped crashing down around my ears.
my heart stopped crackin.
i cud curb my urge to stip off my clothes and run naked into the streets
i managed to finally cry.
i started smiling and laughin through my tears..
the knife stopped twisting.
my issues became stupid and funny.. something to laugh at and not cry over.
i can face tomorrow.

because of jillian.. who lost count of how many "oh my gawd"s i said.
because of pei... who made me laugh over the most insignificant stuff. and gave me the cutest icon ever!
because of tim.. who listened (btw tim. pls remember that you are banned from my blog)
because of hanwei who made me see the bright side in it all.. and was traumatised aft our conversation(im really sorry i told you to go swallow a knife)
because of alden who said the one line which cheered me up immensely.
because of jianxiang who was such a sweetie..
because of pearlyn who was very logical and then emotional.. and then funny abt toilet pump
because of jinyu.. who will always cheer me up with the very thought of him!

most importantly.. because of cheeyen.. KAKI! i love you so much! cant believe that you called all the way from canada! once i heard ur voice.. it seemed so.. i immediately knew that i could get through tonight, tomorrow.. everyday! before u called.. i was feelin miserable about the vast distance between us.. was tinkin why couldnt we be back in holly hall where i cud just reach over to the next bed and hug you.. missing you terribly. was tinkin what a poor substitute MSN can be for a hug from you.. well.. u get the picture.. and then my handphone rings and i hear your lovely voice. im sorry.. im just so amazed that you would call me! long distance call! oh my gawd.. the thot of it makes me wanna cry all over again! actually.. i feel like laughin when i tink about how you called to say a few of your favourite lines! and i got to feast my eyes on you thru webcam.. oh my gawd i just found out tt you got exams in like a few minutes and u took time off ur revision to call to ask whether i was doing alright! and u didnt even tell me as i went on and on... i love u so much dear..you are right.. we could get through NYC being poor.. i can get through anything after that.

pinch me.. im dreaming.. what did i ever do in my life to deserve such wonderful friends?

i have learnt that sometimes.. u help more when u just do nothing and quietly listen..

i'm lovin my angels.



i have no right to feel this way. incomprehensible stupidity.