i'm feelin a bit torn. On one hand, i feel amused that one month after america, the drama still goes on. Gossip is juicy... especially when it involves you.. narcisstic i noe.. but how do you deal with such situations? On the other hand, i feel like slappin some people.

you know what sucks the most? i can take the worst job in the universe.. i can wash all the metal buffet plates of 3 freakin restaurants pratically every day. i can take lugging 24 bottles of soda at one go.. standing out in the hot sun for 7 hours straight.. absolute boredom while standing around.. but the very thought of my "own kind" judging me, i don't think i can take that crap anymore.. On speedwing's survey form, they asked us to describe our worst experience in USA. "being judged and backstabbed by my 'own kind'" won over "worst job in the world".

why won't you leave me alone? like get a grip already. find something else to talk about.. maybe hurricane Rita.. the upcoming elections! why astroworld is closing! the new orleans disaster! there are like so many new topics.. why talk about how some people actually had the nerve to befriend other people of different nationalities? Besides, that happened more than a month ago.
Maybe you would like to ask why i started befriending other pple? take a good look at yourselves. After 2 months of friendship, you start dreamin up of scandals to gossip about. If you had not involved me in your ridiculous charade, i wouldn;t have gave a damn. You are possesive and controllin.. masking it all under the facade of being concerned about me. then behind my back, you excitedly spread untrue news about me.

I'm tired. Tired of attempting to defend myself coz pple believe what they want. sick and tired of all these pple. did i even say anything about your fuckin behaviour such as gg to strip club? It does not mean that if you did not enjoy your strip club experience, i cannot enjoy my house party. dun be so hypocritical. so many examples and i dun noe where to start.

You tell me how you dun wan me to get hurt and all.. and then you proceed to hurt me by going behind my back and.... i can't believe what you said to them! you baboon ass! what did you gain from hurtin my repuation? a lot of glee? thrills? a fun time gossipin? guess what?? they were gossiping about you too! isn't karma such a bitch sometimes? wanna noe what they say about you? bwahahaha .. i sure wouldn't! not very pretty fairytales for your seemingly innocent (and big) ears.

i wun even say fuck you. coz nobody wud ever wan to.

let's put america behind us. get on with it. Astroworld is closing. That chapter in our lives is closed. we may be of the same nationality and same skin colour. But, i'm not your "kind". i don't belong to your anal judgemental club. face it. why would i wan to be categorized in the same group as you? so stop saying that we should stick to our own people. unlike you, i dun belong to the Twits Nation.