okok im experiencing inertia! like real doggone panicky about leavin!i dun have neough time left in singpore.. oh gosh.. i wan to cry gonna miss u guys! adn the funniest thing is tt.. im not even going away for long.. not even like for overseas studies.. but i cant help feelin panicky over gettin out of my comfort zone..

this is an emotional rollar coaster coz. at first i was excited about america.. then just now.. i started makin a list (at my dad's suggestion) of what to do each day.. and realized tt i have not much time left! and as each day passes.. a day of havin my room at pgp also passes.. by friday i wud have checked out.. and the idea of my room being empty and taken by another person who is not worthy is makin me freak! i noe im makin a big deal out of it.. but i reallie do love pgp.. and my room.. so its gonna be very hard for me to let go..

anyways! then i made a list.. and realised tt in between all the packin.. (its 3 months after all) and buyin of stuff to bring there (which is kinda stupid but neccessary).. i have no more time left.. and im sorry baby.. but im not being negative or what.. just feel tt we reallie dun have any more time left to spend together.. and the worst thing is.. i wun be able to catch batman forever in singapore with andy.. wun be able to attend darren's weddin.. see donald's baby! its more difficult when u are leavin a boyfriend behind. so can u see my inertia... in the end.. disturb yujen to help me get all excited about usa again!

can kinda get the mixed feeling ting and neela and nigel got durin the last few days they spend in singpaore.. well.. dun understand it totally coz after all im gg aways for only 3 months.. but can a feel of it lahzz..

and the worse thing is could have gone to bangkok with jill.. tamade.. we have to go there together one day girl....

ok.. incredibly sad yet excited at the same time...