i love pei. i love pei's teacher.. most of all.. i love pei's law lecture notes! love love love!

see... i was nearly in tears over NUS's law lecture notes.. coz it doesnt explain stuff.. it gives examples.. so to understand.. one needs to refer back to the lor sor textbook.. which would be okay iunder normal circumstances.. EXCEPT! when one is crammin in everything in one night! thanks to pei, ntu notes made it all seem so so so much clearer! could better understand and i copied one whole big chunk of ntu notes into my law essay today! shud be correct lahz horz??
one more paper to go.. can't hardly wait!

yet on the other hand.. once exams are over... my days at pgp are also over.. sadly, my pgp days are numbered.. reallie reallie very very upset tt i didnt get the place. i love my room so so much.. was plannin to ask the pple whether i could have e same room next sem once i got my accomodation confirmed.. sadly.. cant even get the accomodation.. *sobs* but i reallie reallie do love my room! it has the best spot.. can look out to the road.. just the right size and layout.. it has the biggest ass window in the whole of block 5.. and... its .... mine! damn damn damn...
haiz

i love pei. i love pei's teacher.. most of all.. i love pei's law lecture notes! love love love!

see... i was nearly in tears over NUS's law lecture notes.. coz it doesnt explain stuff.. it gives examples.. so to understand.. one needs to refer back to the lor sor textbook.. which would be okay iunder normal circumstances.. EXCEPT! when one is crammin in everything in one night! thanks to pei, ntu notes made it all seem so so so much clearer! could better understand and i copied one whole big chunk of ntu notes into my law essay today! shud be correct lahz horz??
one more paper to go.. can't hardly wait!

yet on the other hand.. once exams are over... my days at pgp are also over.. sadly, my pgp days are numbered.. reallie reallie very very upset tt i didnt get the place. i love my room so so much.. was plannin to ask the pple whether i could have e same room next sem once i got my accomodation confirmed.. sadly.. cant even get the accomodation.. *sobs* but i reallie reallie do love my room! it has the best spot.. can look out to the road.. just the right size and layout.. it has the biggest ass window in the whole of block 5.. and... its .... mine! damn damn damn...
haiz

ooooOOOOhh... have u ever felt sad yet incredibly happy and hyper at the same time??
my finance exam sucked. majorly. blehz. have been averagin on 3 - 4 hrs of sleep a nite nowadays.. so im always grumpily grousing. tamade.. just 2 more days! right now.. caffeine runs in my blood.. consume so many packets within a few hours just to keep awake... gosh.. law is reallie full of words! no wonder lawyers always look bored and solemn.. they are strugglin to keep awake! neela.. how can u take it?? i hope ur future cases will be a tad exciting with pple wanting to beat each other up.. then make it more exciting!

yesh rebecca! there are days when the neighbourhood school shit happens and i will be able to shrug it off.. but other times... u just wanna wrap ur hands ard their necks and squeeze! bwahahahahaha.. i will be gg to 6 flags..hmmm.. basically.. i will be going to work in houston, texas.. which means.. i will be in the state of houston.. in the city texas. just a clarification to pple.. *grins mischievously* like how i confused poor ting when i just said houston, texas! the accomodation is located within the six flags land.. and provided by them.. currently, i have a placed reserved for me there.. but shud i go there and find another cheaper apartment.. i can try to change my accomodation.. in less than two weeks i will be there! the apartments are all within this area which is restricted access.. cool eh?? love love love ur blog rebecca! thanks to you.. got the introduction to kayne's west family business! lovely lovely song!

thanks for the mention ting! feel so loved and special! heh.. drama drama drama! in my opinion.. feel tt u shud not come bac.. not worth it.. wait till december! thinkin of going over then.. then we can do all the fun exciting adventure stuff then come bac together! heh.. maybe we can even go for a balloon ride! *stares off dreamily*


JILL jill jill! where the hell are u?! we need to suntan one last time before i go off for 3 months.. by the time i come bac.. will be too ahem.. fleshy to fit into my bikini.. texas is the place where there are cows and horses! think of all the MEAT! *drools* the lovely fleshy meat.. with spices... heh... yesh.. when i see cows and horses.. i tink.. food... hey! im chinese! ang moh pple will look at fishes and animals.. and think of ways on how to protect them... ooooh chinese try to eat anything in sight.. for example... my parents.. i remember the time when we went to maldives.. the fishes came swimmin ard us.. normally pple wud marvel at such a happening right? u noe what my parents did? they pointed out different varieties of fishes and told us how to cook them! and when we went to san diego's seaworld.. at the stingray pool, my family members were calculating how mnay pple each big stingray wud feed at a BBQ. sighzz.. so yesh.. when i go to texas.. i will be eating the 3 pigs.. the wolf.. and the grandmother!

finally watched "eurotrip".. watched it last night.. so many neh neh poks... so boring... story was not bad.. but didnt reallie laugh coz was tinkin about the finance exam and how to study for the econs exam the next day..

ramesh! dun lose hope! still got time.. if we can cram in one whole sem's workload in one day... we can do anything! though.. history is still a bit teeny weeny difficult.. *wails* im a geography student!! i shall just write more about sang nila gan ni na. heh.

simply. cannot.wait. for. saturday! SLEEP : how long must u elude me! was late for my econs exam today. coz i couldnt find my name on the seatin plan.. panic like nobody's biz! so paiseh lorz.. fell asleep aft they collected the paper.. gosh.. i reallie am gg crazy.. i go to exams without carryin any notes for last min revision.. gg in resigned to fail tt paper.. and when i come out.. still can happily bitch to people how horrible and funny the paper was. like wtf! have a feelin tt law is not gonna be tt good though!

before i go.. i wud like to pose one question.. HOW THE HELL DO U STUDY LAW?

for the record.. i hate finance.., like seriously.. if i cud.. happily gladly shovel it into the rubbish heap where it belongs!! wth. i have 5 more chapters to go and arrrghhh!!1 it seems like the exam paper for last year was a horrror.. dare not peek at it or else i wud cry!

had a brave moment.. coz the guys went out to get coffee.. and *scary music plays* can u imagine.. being alone ina room.. surrounded by finance notes??? how horrifyin it alreadi is?? and then! *dramatic music plays* i saw.... (eeek ekkk ekkk eekkk the scream's theme song) a cockroach! YESH! i bet ting is gg "poor thing!" so after the much screamin and hoppin about . i decided to be brave.. and took a mag frm the floor.. decided i hated the pretty girl on the front cover.. and remember pei's advice on how to kill a cockroach. well what she( speakin of which .. her exam would have ended when she reads this.. lucky thing! congrats dear!) wrote on her blog at least.. see! i do listen! or well.. read.. anways! back to my brave moment... managed to WHACK IT! heh! was so happy!.. did a victory dance! so i went bac to my com and boasted all bout killin the cockraoch.. then .. my spendid moment of glory turned to a shriek! coz.. i looked to where the cockroach was.. and it was gone! GONE! DISAPPEARED!

the first thot tt ran thru my head was.. do cockroaches have souls?? if they do.. do they haunt their killers?? the next one was.. "WHERE THE FUCK DID IT GO??" so started hoppin ard in case it was near me.. funny.. the way a small insect can reduce a grown 19 year old girl to a quivering mass of terror! took up my weapon and went into combat mode! but.. it was nowhere to be seen! (scream's horror music starts to play again). anways.. just picture the guys's shock when they entered to see me shoutin "cockroach cockroach!" so much for the tough girl image! in the end.. so anti climaz.. im ashamed to say tt i ran out of the room.. terrified tt the cockroach wud find me for revenge.. cockroaches.. they dun let on how smart they are, u noe! how could anything survive my whack??? the mystery remains.. anyways.. it didnt survive andy's stomp. so mr cockroach.. to clarify.. i did not kill u.. unless ur eardrums burst frm my constant screamin. PS note tt there was no sympathy oozing out frm the guys. such bastards. heh.

i hate finance! hate hate hate. i just found out tt the hostel in houston texas.. is shared by 6 pple.. as in one appartment shared by 6 pple.. HOW COOL! totally awesome! u have ur own privacy.. but when u feel lonely.. u can go out to the main living room and tada! company.. talked to yujen and he suggested monopoly everynite. groan.. i always always go bankrupt durin monopoly so u can see why my finance is so bad! anyways i warned the poor guy tt i get violent when pple take my monopoly money! bwahhahahahhahah bad news is tt there is no net connection.. only in the library which i wud have to take a train to.. so not gonna be online often.. will miss u guys!

okok bac to finance.. teh 2 guys are stressin me out with their mutterings and glares (coz of the typin sound im makin) .. for the record.. i hate finance

i tink... *slowly*
i will go into the building course..
1) Bsc Building looks pretty good.. heh!
2) not many pple in my year wan to go building..
3) BU exams are often open book...
4) in building, you learn a skill...
5) RE is more to management.. and when recession comes along.. management pple are normally the first to go. which is scary..
6) easier to get a job with Bsc Building.. even if u get a pass degree, they will still take u..
7) more girls wan RE.. so easier to get into building

these are frm a senior i toked to... hmmmmmm... what say u??
the reasons i got for gg into RE is..
1) more to theory which im better at
2) can study sociology as a core module
3) subjects will be easier
4) no drawing.. hallejuiah
5) Bsc Real Estate looks good too!
6) more to management.. so more flexible jobs.
7) geetha, ramesh, siti, ben, are gg into RE

decisions decisions!

my blog pic reallie sucks... need to change it sia. anyways.. im just bloggin coz im real sick and tired of pple always puttin down neighbourhood schools. what the fuck is wrong with you?
branded school.. big fuck ahz? u narrow minded senseless stupid pple.. yeah yeah yeahz.. u had better teachers and better study environment.. ever though bout pple in neighbourhood schools who had to make it on their own?? have u?? u needed babying. we had to make it with our own fuckin determination. our teachers are frm the same country. we had our equal share of good terachers... why look down on them too? yeahz. so gettin top of our standard and an A in our school is easy compared to urs.. so what?? in the end.. O levels.. we are agsint pple like u .. and managed to score equally well.. where is ur point?? dont come and fucking say tt coz our standard is lousy so compared to other papers... the better papers will be marked better. they mix the scripts up. plus dun shit with me and say we will do better in oral coz the standards are more slack. fuck you. we happen to use english language for our textbooks as well if u didnt noe. narrow minded.. tts what you are. you have no idea what life is like in neighbourhood schools so shut the fuck up. look down on me all u wan. the knowledge tt i managed to get to the same standard as u in spite of all the odds against me.... is enough... i pity you narrow minded people. branded school .... big fuck. pity your school never did teach you values such as humility, open minds and sensitivity.

im scared for finance. during my buildin exam, once a page had numbers on it.. i flipped over the page.. can u imagine finance? i hate finance.

anyways.. i wun have internet access in my room in usa.. only on weekends when i go to the library.. so tt is gonna be a teeny weeny prob! but the buildin security would be like kent ridge's one... access into the buildin wif a key... i hope i make frens there! coz the pple i have been talkin to .. arent reallie very friendly! my dad happens to have a flight gg near texas so he will most prob pay me a visit.. hip hip hooray! can seat al the rides with him! heh... seriously hope that six flags will be a blast!

countdown to usa begins ---> 15 days

its amazing how pple show their true colours in such times.
so fuckin bitter now.
kinda get a sense of how ting felt a week ago. can so hear ting gg welcome to my world.. heh.. except! here there is a ridiculous lack of chocolates.

hmmm right now.. i filled with a sense of such hopelessness.. am pondering whether i shud even turn up for the stupid exam later.

just ha d aconversation.. and i got this terrible pit in my heart.. why e heck am i surrounded by smart pple? i hate this. so fuckin miserable. if u are smart, dun need to show it off to me.. i dun even tok bout my fuckin A. and why tok bout it in such a time when im desperate?? feel dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb.

this is quite bad... when i say bad.. i mean its a real catastrophe. exams are here.. and in my opinion, building science is bad. realli reallie reallie reallie bad. so is finance. aiyah.. everything is bad. but BU reallie sucks big time. i have a feelin there is a high possibility of gettin a D this time! and my cap score doesnt allow such stuff! shit. and i didnt choose the option of real estate! didnt even choose so basically i will go to any department tt has space for me. im basically.. in one word. fucked.

the only thing cheerin me up right now is i got my first A in a long long while! k so it was supposed to be a B- then they moderated it to A-. BUT hey! lets just make the most of it! and guess which essay it is?? the sang nila gan ni na paper! the one i had to write about my opinions on sang nila gan ni na and raffles! love love love love! thanks chris, pei and jill for offerin some quotes! looks like the lecturer agreed with my scarcsm coz i was tokin bout the cow's saliva! bwahahahaha.. anyways.. its just a paper. im still screwed for the module. SS... its history! bahzz

to ting: hey babe.. hang in there.. i dunnoe.. u cud throw a cayman into her room as soon as u move to her floor.. *evil evil laugh*

i got my usa work visa! hooray!! all that sweatin and panickin over the forms and all.. finally over! im officially settin off for america in 20 days! it was real funny.. coz before i cud go to the US embassy, had to go novena first to get my letter for the intereview.. and the most amazing thing is tt.. the very times i wanted a taxi.. they actually stopped! like when i came out frm pgp.. there was one taxi.. then aft the speedwing office.. was worried.. coz not many taxis stop by Goldhill and behold! this guy got out of the taxi... just a few metres away frm me! heng sia! coz speedwing only said tt the interviews were conducted frm 9 am to 11am.. what i didnt noe was tt if u arrive at the entrance later than 10 am.. the US embassy wun let u in! i arrived with exactly 5 mins to spare.. heng heng! anyways.. the interview consisted of 3 questions.. but they are reallie very nice pple lahz.. they actually joke with u to make the process easier and less pressurizing! the building is nice though. like the water feature.. (*grinz* security guard outside is hot!)

kk back to work. *looks at the mountain of work* u noe what? oh forget it.

jill. i miss u.

empty promises. make me bitter.

i wish this exam was over. im dead. dead as can be.

went to jie jie's grad ceremony on sat.. the photos are below.. hmmmm feel tt the gown is more like a costume coz they need so many pins to keep it in place! and its so hot! well, durin the ceremony, i was reallie reallie reallie bored! coz they had a million gazillion pple graduating.. so we had to seat thru about 7 pages worth of other pple going up to take it before they called my sis! and another 3 pages before e ceremony ended! i was grumblin on sms to pple tt i wud wan to skip my own graduation ceremony. i mean sim is alreadi relatively small.. can u imagine nus?? i wud be snoring.. one of the seats in SIM alreadi has many of my fried butt cells (ie.. my butt burned frm sittin down to long!) but i have a feelin i wun be able to skip since dad didnt attend jie's one.. he will try his best to attend mine. now we know what the big ass gown is for! to hide my mp3 player and book! either tt or i wud be horsing ard with friends at the back! wait! it wud be in alphabetical order! NOOOoooooooooooooooo! tt means geetha fabian ramesh siti andy will be together and ah lai will be way way way further! and i !! wud be stuck!!! with my.... *gasp* admin grp!!!!! *runs ard like a headless chicken!* they cannot do this! wei leen... will be . i wud need binoculars! and... *bangs head on table* vern they all wud have alreadi graduated. gulps. i tink better get thru first year then say lahz horz?

went to watch sound of music last nite! heh.. well.. let's just say they go by the motto "it ain't over till the fat lady sings".. malkim is totally dead the next time i see him! its a 3 hrs show though.. feel that the movie is better.. the one right now.. she's a bit irritating!

my take on the movies now... i was lookin at the movie pages and realised tt i have watch almost every show excludin the horror movies! here's my review
guess who? - wait for vcd to come out. or go on mon/tues
pacifier - lagi wait for it to come out on vcd... or when u have ab no movie to watch
sahara - matthew is irritating here. no brain cells required. guys wud like it. prefer national treasure.
robots - watch in theatre on mon/tues

i love my baby! so sleek!

thumbs up to dear jill who helped me with the captioning! congratulations dear jie jie! for makin it thru uni! 

see the resemblance? heh! we got bored while waiting for the ceremony to start! i personally feel tt audrey looks like a squirrel here! if u look closely, u can see tt my right eye is swollen.. again!  

special thanks to chris who helped me to crop this pic since my hse com could not! heh.. this is at sim's garden 

take a look at my sis's grad costume!  

unlike dear pei.. when the crunch time comes.. i blog more than usual! heh.. i have an awful habit of bloggin when im miserable which explains this whiney blog..
basically im screwed for the exams (speakin of which... yesh ting i felt like slappin u.) haven reallie started revisin.. pretty scared shitless.
the other day i was talkin to christine.. and i realised something.. dun get me wrong ..its not tt i regret anything.. i mean my sec school days were the time of my life and they made me the who i am today.. sgss was a real blast.. its just tt.. i feel rather sad sometimes. ok im talkin in riddles.. u see.. for pple from well .. let's just say more to the english side.. like cedar, rgs, *shrugs*, ij.. for pple frm here.. when u are in uni. more often than not, u will see someone from ur sec school which is reallie cool .. can catch up and all.. on the other hand i dont reallie get the chance to do tt. my sec friends are mostly in poly and u can see the contact with them has been cut coz they are often talkin bout their new poly friends and life while i dun share the same thinkin. to date, i only know bout 4 sgss pple who came to nus.. so when i meet them, im extremely happy. yeahzzz... so dun get me wrong.. just feelin wistful that not many of my sec school frens are with me now.. coz it wud have been pretty fun to hang out in the same environment.. like i remember the times the 11 of us wud stubbornly sit at "our" table.. even though someone's butt wud be nearly droppin off the damn seat.. and how we made our teachers cry.. or the times we hung out at the corridor after recess was over. heck! i even miss the times the guys wud bang on the tables and all. i miss mercilessly teasing yee fong.. being able to walk ard sgs and noe everyone who passed by.. and how we wud always greet and chit chat with each other irregardless of how late we were.. i miss the times delfy wud keep a look out while we sneaked out of class one by one to go to the empty classrooms upstairs to tok.. it seemed like we never ran out of stuff to tok about! the crazy basketball games... and the afternoons when we wud cum to school early and watch the crazy guys play soccer in the hot blasting sun while we sat in on top in the cool shade drinkin and gossipin. i miss laughing about chek mun's extremely short shorts!
there are so many memories... so when i see some funny incident relating to sgss, i wan sgss pple to be beside me so we can recall and laugh about it with me.. now.. i have to explain what happened then and now before pple get it.. and tt kinda takes the fun out of it.. yeahzz.. so sgss pple.. i do miss u guys.. im sorry that our paths have taken us in so many different ways... the sad part is tt im the one who took the path tt leads the furthest away frm u guys.. our thinkings have all changed.. we are so different now.. i noe nothing can be the same as before.. heck i haven seen u guys in ages.. the other day when i met irene.. i was thinkin .. i may not have changed appearance-wise but inside, im so different frm the adeline who had big dreams.. the adeline who was happy-go-lucky.. the naive romantic one with such wonderful views of the world.. the adeline who used to be damn sporty and kept on askin pple to play games durin pe.. the brash loud girl who would not care if she didnt like u... okay im sidetrackin.. its just tt.. if any of u read this.. perhaps we cud get together? 3 years may be a very long gap to bridge.. but lets try? after all.. we were good friends for 4 years... time wouldnt matter to us, right?

on a happier note. i got a new baby which i fervently worship. big thanks to andy who helped me! on a sad note.. i need to start saving!! halp! WAIT. the exams are in a few days.. HALP!

hmmmm guess did i go last nite?? i give u a few hints: 1) you will confirm lose $$. 2) many many men go there. 3) there are many four legged beasts of beauty. yep! the kranji's singapore turf club!

*puffs up with pride* i realised that i have a knack of spottin the best horses! heh.. when we entered, they were walkin the horses ard to let the punters see which one to bet on... mamameah! when i saw no. 7 ... i immediately felt a "yuan" to it! and said "tt one! let's bet on tt one! it looks nice". and no.7 won!!! *shrieks* bwahahahah and we won $1. BWAHAHAHAHAHA. and we used tt $1 to buy a pen. (the first bet was placed usin my eyeliner.) and during the whole night... kept on practising discrimination. coz i kept betting on black horses.. hey.. they are much easier to spot during the race so u can cheer it on!! of coz.. andy had to kindly point out tt i was discriminating against the majority of the horses. heh.. tink tt the turf club wud be a very very cool place for us to go one day! think about it.. just limit $10 to each race and then scream ur lungs out durin the race! play ard 5 races and then go back.. clubbin is much more expensive.. and here.. u get to have more space and aircon! and examine horses! i wud reallie like to own a racing horse one day! a black racing horse. though it will be super expensive to maintain... but the more horses u own.. economies of scale will come in! will be like tt guy.. Lim.. his horses are named Lim's .... like Lim's Spear..Lim's destiny.. i shall name mine adel's cow, adel's pig.. SO MUCH easier to pronounce and train.

Watched "sahara". erm well. i was irritated with the editing. national treasure was better in the sense tt there was more mental and intellect involved in their hunt. this one is more to... well.. action action and action. not much thinkin. funny in certain areas. yeah. so guys wud enjoy it.. girls... well.. just leave ur brain at the door.
ok im reallie bored..

ahhhhzzzz the taste of finally finishing all my assignments! feels pretty good!
im so sorry pei for not being able to keep my promise! im ashamed to say this.. but i act enjoyed doing the law essay.. then again, law needs lots of analyzing and thinkin.. and i dun think exam conditions are very conducive for one to sit back and think! hated doing SS though.. coz i didnt know how to intepret the question.. to me.. the question felt more to lit than singapore studies.. sighz.. cud feel tt it was a load of rubbish as i was typin it out. overexceeded the word limit by like i dunnoe.. wrote 5 pages altogether.. hope he doesnt penalize.. wud have prferred doing jill's media essay. Now, that is reallie incoporating research, reality and theory all into one paper!

and i finally got all my documents in proper order for the speedwing thing to go to usa.. houston, texas here i come! was getting pretty frustrated coz i cud not go down to their office.. and there was a miscommunication.. they didnt get tt i didnt have the proper forms and all... heng i started addin 6 flags pple on msn! this very nice guy sent it to me.. nearly peed in my pants frm the relief! bwahahahahah... im hopin tt 6 flags wud be much kinder to me in terms of frens.. since im gg there solo.. it's a bit intimidating to imagine tt everyone there will be in their own cliques, leavin me alone to twiddle my thumbs.. esp on the 4 flights to houston texas.. i wud be left pretty much alone.. yeahz... hopefully, pple wud be friendly and include me intheir conversation! my worse fear is tt it turns out to be lke nus.. u meet many pple.. but after a while..after all the niceties and formalities have been said.. there is nothing to tok about.. and u are just left standin there in very awkard silences, not knowin what to do!

damn upset coz my accomodation application has been turned down.. i have to go back to my hse??? are u kiddin? the journey here and back is so far.. i feel like crying! AND my classes always end late. and i wud miss my "family" and freedom here! here, i can walk ard pgp at 3 am to print some urgent work.. or stay up for a late nite chat or watch soccer with the rest or .., basically determine my own schedule..most of all.. i'll miss my room! i love it so so much! shoot. shall not say anymore before i burst into tears again.

recommend jeffrey deaver's "The Empty Chair" not a bad book! sighz... not been gettin much sleep coz of the stupid assignments... cough and flu still not gone! geez. just think.. aft monday's french test, there wun be anymore stupid deadlines to meet! yay! finally..all the work is (almost) done! now.. its the studyin crunch time., hmmm.. okay feelin the pressure again. fuck.

therapy cured me! i used to hate everything. now.. i don't! yay!
i just think everything is stupid. including this law assignment.
just found out i got F for class participation for my law. sucks! 15% of my grade gone! shall attempt to salvage it with forum.

rem i kept askin ard bout this song... something pretty baby and all?? power 98 rocks! played it.. and i got the whole song frm letssingit.com while listening.. here u go peeps!


Roll With Me
by Del Amitri

Look around your world, pretty baby
Is it everything you hoped it'd be?
The wrong guy the wrong situation
The right time to roll with me
Look into your heart, pretty baby
Is it achin' with some nameless need?
Is there something wrong and you can't put your finger on it?
Right now roll with me
And I don't think I have ever seen
A soul so in despair
So if you want to talk the night through
Guess who will be there
So dont try to deny it, pretty baby
You've been down so long you can hardly see
When the engines start and it wont stop raining
It's the right time to roll with me
And I don't think I have ever seen
A soul so in despair
So if you want to talk the night through
Guess who will be there
So look around your world, pretty baby
Is it everything you hoped it'd be?
The wrong guy the wrong situation
The right time to roll with me