for some reason or other, im feelin reallie down. this feelin is so terrible.. i dun even noe how to describe it. i'll just say the reasons behind it.. maybe u can understand how i feel right now.
okok.. i missed my last 2 french lessons. was studyin for the test all the way till4 last nite.. then this morning the teacher told me tt i cant take the test.. first thot : "thank God i took S/U" yeah but in the end she was nice enuff to let me take it.. once i got the paper, i immediately knew why she didnt want to let me take the test. 2 out of the 3 sections... were based on the last lesson. aft tt.. i was so terrified that i messed up the first sections.. i knew how to end the words.. but i did them in the wrong conjugaison!!! i'm so pissed with myself over tt!! ARGH! and the test wud have been easy! if i attended the last lesson. fuck.
then later tt day, my boss smsed me to say tt since biz has not been good, he's letting me go.. i kinda expected this.. but what lousy timing. arrrghhh. so yesh.. im jobless. and broke. as in reallie reallie broke. this is the lowest i have come to manz...
then about 2 hrs later.. my mom called to tell me tt my cousin has taken for a turn for the worse. so now.. he is in the high dependency ward in NUH. which. wud be okay. except tt . my aunt happened to be in the same kind of t ward when she.. u noe... passed away.. so right now.. its reallie not helpin my nerves to have tt titbit of info. why do all the bad things come at you in one go.. they dun give u time to recover!
Thank God for weileen! aft the test i went over to his room to roll on his beanbag and moan... so he was with me when i got the 2 pieces of bad news.. and he was there tryin his best to comfort me.. forcing me to get out of my self pity state.. and misery! Hey dude.. if u are reading this.. just wan to thank you... thank you for being there... for puttin aside ur stuff to listen to my endless whines.. for helpin me to get to my feet.. and forcin me to see the light side of stuff! thanks manzzz.. i reallie owe u loads!