2nd day of school...
sighzzzz.. on one hand im pretty happy to be reunited wif everyone.. and to regain my room /freedom back... on the other hand... its.. school. but i guess i cant complain since im pretty lucky to have 2 wonderful worlds to go back to! lessons have just been briefings so far so its pretty okay just not used to the schedule yet. mind you, i say this with the greatest admiration and respect, but i tink my Buidlin science teacher looks a bit like a clown.. u noe.. those kind of pple who cant stop smilin.. even when they are not smilin... they are smiling! get wat i mean?
anyways.. upon returnin back.. u can expect to see more blog posts and more appearances on MSN by good ol me! my home com is pa-ria lahz..
been devourin several books. and reallie recommend 5 people you meet in heaven! geetha is still readin my copy and heh... she found the answers to her MSN nick! now i keep on wonderin bout the 5 people i will meet.. (provided i get past tt tiny itsy issue of u noe... going to the 8th level of hell) .. i just noe when i meet each one of them.. i will be ashamed. but yeah i agree wif tt idea tt heaven is not just a place where we play harps or we float around aimlessly.. coz a purpose is wats keep us going.. having a peace of mind and understandin wat our lives were on earth is wat everyone needs to be happy. so i shall resolve to put down 5 things tt i feel happy bout each week.
u noe.. of all the words in the dictionery.. i feel that the most beautiful word is "tenderness". love the ad .. touch emotions. touch rhythm and blah blah blah... coz a tender touch is raher like a droplet of water on a dry and cracked skin.. u love the sensation and crave more.. but for now.. its enough. even if u dun get more.. it is something u can relive in ur memory when u are unhappy. its like this one line in CSI. "it took a group of people to kill him.. but it would have taken only one person to save him". you can save someone just by touchin them..but then tenderness is not just bout physical touch... a tender look is so much more. i saw this mother and her baby on the mrt lahz. granted i do not socialise with kids, but this baby was reallie quiet and sweet.. just lookin up to her mother wif all the adoration a small being can possess... it kinda made me stop and wonder hey.. when and how did i morph from a innocent and blissful baby to this cynical manipulative selfish little bitch i am now?? hmmm im startin to sound preachy and stupid... been doing a lot of thinkin lahz. like now.. when they ask for aid for tsunami victims.. when the govts asked pple to give money donations instead of clothes and all.. first thot on my mind was "huh. so u can eat my money rite?" im not sayin tt all the govts are corrupt and all.. yeah money has a greated liquidity than clothes and all.. but in everty system.. there will always be several idiots who try to benefit from other's misfortunes. so i wud rather give old clothes knowin tt there is a higher chance for my intended recipents to receive it rather than it going into some greedy fat ghonna-burn-in-hell bastard's pocket. we were just discussin how we no longer watch NKF and other charity shows.. coz of the lack of transparency. tt is a reality of life i guess.
friends are part and parcel of life.. some were meant to go some were meant to stay. the more essential questions is.. are u so busy longingly lookin at the ones who walked away while neglectin e ones who are still by your side? you dun miss your water till the well runs dry. if u do not care bout the ones who are still by ur side..well..
suddenly realised tt i dun haf many frens in nus lahz.. like yest i was like an aimless ghost lahz..
am tired and cranky i guess.. well gtg..