juz read christine's blog.. *sob* my little couzzie.. all grown up!
shall paste it here.. just say i agree wif dis one.. budden the cutting? coz at tt point of time.. u feel like life is totally out of your control. the only thing u can control is ur body. when everything is spinning like crazy making you feel like sum sort of caged animal. wild and reckless. some binge on food, some run and sum.. well.. do other stuff. u dun see the scars coz u wun put them in an obvious position. so when u are having fun, u wun see.. juzt saying lahz.. okok shall paste it here..
"allow your life to be controlled by emotions. as in stupid emotions like crushes. like hello so many of ya'll tell me that ya'll cant get over that particular person cause you've really fallen inlove with them but think about it. most of ya'll dont even know them. in reality they're just eye candy but u went and made it so that u BELIEVE that u are inlove with them. furthermore, you dont know what love is. HELLO!!!!!! like we are jus teens!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! seriously loving someone means u wanta spend the rest of your live with them. and think bout it do u really wanta tie yourself to that person? if yes den fine i've got nothing to say except that dont let your life get ruled by them. but to the rest of ya'll all you are feeling is just attraction and simply because of that attraction you cant stop thinking bout them and all that shit. seriously it's ridiculous, IT"S YOUR LIFE why allow it to revolve arnd someone who most likely will not return your affections???? some of ya'll say that being in love means that u cant help thinking bout tt person 24/7 but really if love was that way, no one would get anything done. love doesnt mean that u'll think of someone 24/7, to love means to stay by that person's side no matter what, support them unwaveringly and just be there.love is for companionship. NOT to be like some psycho thinking,dreaming and mooning over the other. that's just a damn CRUSH MAN!!!!!!! sheesh."
*tears* my little baby cousin.. all grown up.. and ranting reasonable advice!!! golly!
went to work today!! had practiced on a nice uncommitted yet sociable smile when i went intot the office but itz wuz totally wasted.. coz there wuz no one there!! the pple working in my area wud just come in for like.. ermmm 15 mins?? then go off.. and the rest of the workers are seperated by on wall!! messed it up a bit.. hope i stapled the rite forms together.. but the office is isolated!! tink shall be all lonesome there.. the other office workers there are look at me like im frm some other planet or sumthing.. ah well shall bring my discman there then! so it will be me and discman and my only fren.. the photocopy machine! haiz...
okok qun is bac to normal very weird.. but ah well!